Today’s daily prompt;
Pinpoint a moment in your past where you had to make a big decision. Write about that other alternate life that could have unfolded.
The last major change in my life (and probably the biggest so far) was deciding to accept the offer to do a PhD at Nottingham Uni. I had spent the previous 9 months or so researching and applying to various different PhD projects and had a few, unsuccessful interviews. I had now finished my final year exams and still didn’t have anything set in stone but I wasn’t too worried just yet as I had a couple more interviews. However if either of these didn’t work out then I was out of time in terms of applying for more- for the immediate future anyway. You see I had decided to spend the summer in the USA and Canada as a kind of well done you have completed your degree treat. So there was no way I would be available to interview. It was down to these last 2.
I didn’t get the 1st one but if you have read some of my previous posts you will have guessed that I got the 2nd one. Great, I now had a plan for after the summer and could enjoy myself without worrying about what happens when I get back.
But what would have happened if I hadn’t have been successful?That is a question I have asked myself quite a lot over the last 2 1/2 years. There are parts of me that regret undertaking the PhD, I mean my first year is a period of my life that I would rather forget but on the other hand it has probably made me a stronger person (what doesn’t kill you etc...).
But what if I hadn’t done this PhD though?
Well my back-up plan was to basically work for a bit and then travel. Whether that was back-packing or working maybe by teaching english as a foreign language or something like. All I knew is that the travel bug had bitten me before I had even got on the plane to the States and while I has been lucky enough to have holidayed in many different places there was, and still is, a huge part of the world that I would love to explore.
I guess a part of it was also the hope that it would help me figure out what I wanted to do and to get from life. Something I feel I haven’t completely figured out yet still. I thought about traveling east to Japan, New Zealand, Australia and maybe even China/Hong Kong. Or if money was tighter a detailed exploration of Europe as despite considering myself as well traveled there is much of Europe I have not experienced.
I’m not sure where this path would have led me in the end, probably because I don’t even know where the one I’m on is going. Perhaps both paths will cross again and I will have the opportunity to at least walk a part of my traveler’s path. Maybe I have passed the point where that kind of travel is possible and that path would have eventually ended by re-joined the ‘road’ of adulthood we all must step onto at some point.
I hope not.